Its Killing Me

Excessive amount of exercise in weekends are just now killing my legs , hands my complete body
but its good for me
my stamina is very low i have a raise it
i know i do have excessive amount of strength but i have to learn how to store and utilize it

my advice to everyone is if you dont do anything
then please do atleast any sports activity

it makes mind busy away from bad thoughts and make a  you a good human from inside and help you  in teaching how to work in a team
and makes you healthy and fit

i am learning's and in future i would love to experience more with you world

have a nice day and enjoy you life according to your style   

Tides Of Time

I can die for this song 
This song is my life my final destination 
I was searching for something more then music , voice , feelings and everything
and for me this song is very important 

 

Each an every word  and part of this song is breath taking and mesmerizing
and Music is so full of life

Tides of Time - Epica 

DeviL SeX

Hello world                                                                       
Today i want to share my story with you its my SEX story 

I feel like i am inside hell , i lost in the dankness of sin OH my god what the hell i have done 

I remember that day very well 
i was missing her a lot it's becoming very hard for me to blink my eyes 
she was in air everywhere 
i was lost in her kingdom completely trapped by her memories   
WOUNDED , PAINFUL , ALMOST DEAD

Then she appear from no where  she was satan , devil 
i have never seen her before she was seductive yet poisons

 i dont even know how my cloths get off from me 
how she pleasure me , how she suck me 
how i go inside her 
Her black magic suck me in 


i still remember her face she try's to erase my memories 
from her nude body 
i lost my virginity that day and i still regret 
what the fuck i have done i still think and cry 

 

Confused

I am confused about my future 
my parents want me to  do what they want 
but i am a completely fucking different person i cant express my feeling in front of my father and mother 
my friends do know me very well they understands me sometime 
I have a very wired personality  and i love to do what i want 
what my heart and mind wants  


but i cant express my feelings in front of my parents 
i can do a lot of things but i am soo confused what should i do 


i do know one thing in the end i will listen to myself and do what i want 
not what my parents WANT 


This song is my favorite song and this song describes my exact condition  

I fuck things Up

Hello world 
I want to tell something its always inside me 
It makes me nervous when any girl stares at me 
Its obvious she is attracted by me and me too by her then why i fuck things up in last moment  
when she try to reach me i always change my path 
i feel so nervous and tensed at that time my heartbeat starts increasing 
and to calm myself down i run away from that place and from that girl 

so many times this happen with me 
when something is beginning to happen i just fuck things and after that i think about it 


i don't know how to deal with this situation 
One more thought always come in my mind if she says NOO then ??? 
My friends have 3 , 4 girlfriends each they are very lucky they just go and do it . 


It needs a lot of courage and i don't have that much courage inside me  
hope i will change myself soon 
Girls attract me a lot whoever i go to mall or some other place but i  always miss  my chance 
because of my mistakes 
I realize this habit of mine i will try to change myself